Monday, February 25, 2013

Dinding. Lagi.

Pastinya setiap yang berlaku punya sebab tersendiri.
Walau terkadang aku sendiri tertanya apakah yang tersirat disebalik yang terjadi itu.
Namun ku gagahkan hati, percaya dengan setiap ketentuan Dia yang satu.
Mungkin belum masanya untuk aku temui erti disebaliknya.
Kerana kadangkala setiap yang terjadi itu bukanlah untuk dimengerti.

Di saat kita merasakan chemistry itu hampir tiba,
Kejadian demi kejadian berlaku memecahkan semuanya.
Dan disini, dinding itu muncul kembali.
Kekok.
Sukar.
Perit.

Aku rindu saat itu.
Aku ingin kembali ke situ.
Seharusnya dari awal aku membina dinding itu.
Supaya aku tak merasa perasaan yang begini.
Bukan senang untuk runtuhkan dinding yang pertama dulu.
Dan pastinya lebih sukar untuk dinding yang kedua ini.

Wahai aku. Terimalah kesudahan itu. Semuanya kerana aku. 


Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Missing.

Smiling with no reason. Why? You didn't even do something funny but I'm smiling like crazy seeing your name appearing on the screen. See? How did you do it? Seriously.


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Shouldn't.

People said, some things better left unsaid. Today I believe it. Not all things should have been said. Sometimes it will be better if you didn't know the truth. Cuz it may be a little too late. Or may be not at the right time and right place. Just please, left it unsaid. I wish I could turn back times. And I never wanted to hear that one. Never.

Monday, February 11, 2013

Ever.


Do you ever feel like you wanna give up on things? When you don't know whether you've chosen the right one. Or your choice making someone else hurting. I don't know. Just hoping that everything is alrite. And I left it all to Allah swt. Will just follow the flow. Cuz I'm sure with the things I do at the moment.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

S.A.Y.A.N.G.


6 weeks are too short. As usual, separation is the thing that everyone hates. 6 weeks isn't long but we managed to be this close in this short period. No more classes. No more energizer. No more Miss A's voice and advises for us. But the memories is still there. Just why are we becoming too close now I can't forget everything. And the places that we used to go together, I can't go alone at the moment. Their voices and presence still lingers around me. Will take time for it to be back to normal again.

And why...Why did they love to sing Sayang? I used to hate that song when I first heard. But later when one of my group member sang that song almost everyday, started to like it little by little. Then other class members keep singing that song and officially I turned out to love that song. Plus, our class guitarist sang that song too during the gathering while doing Truth or Dare game. I love how they sing with live guitar. And then last week classes, all of us keep singing that song. So now when listening to Shae's Sayang, I will always remember them all. Sweetest 6 weeks with them. Friendships, Relationships and Loves.=)



Saturday, February 2, 2013

020213

Words that I wanna heard the most. Have been said by him. On 2nd February 2013 about 0100. Well, I'm cool maybe because I've been prepared for this. But thanks to him for making the first move and everything. Its true that he can't read my feelings toward him since I've controlled everything and now I want you to know that, the words that have been said by you last nite, is the words that I really wanna heard the most. And it comes from you. So I'll wait for the time that we'll be Halal for each other. I trust you. And I will try to improve myself too =)