Ku mohon kekuatan dari kekuatanMu Wahai Pencipta.

Mungkin, saat semua sudah tersedia aku leka.

Mungkin kerna terlalu selesa dengan apa yang ada, aku lalai.

Mungkin Pencipta mahukan aku dekat denganNya.

Mungkin Dia rindukan tangis dan rintihanku padaNya.

Aku redha, aku akur Ya Allah.

Walau apa yang terjadi, aku bersyukur Kau memilihku.

Aku bersyukur dengan apa yang kau berikan.

Sekurang-kurangnya jika ini adalah salah satu jalan untuk melunaskan khilaf ku yang lalu, aku pasrah wahai Tuhan.

Aku masih ada Engkau, masih ada keluarga yang sanggup berkorban apa sahaja untuk aku. Alhamdulillah.

Ku mohon dariMu Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dari kekuatanMu.

Tabahkan lah aku. Yakinkan aku, Engkau sentiasa bersamaku.

Dan timpakan lah ujian yang mampu untuk aku tempuh Ya Allah.

Jauhkan lah aku dari putus asa.

Aamiin.

So Not.

I shouldn't be like this. He's just nobody. Not yet. Or maybe never will. Who knows? But since it is growing, the jealousy has already be there. This is so not me. Adi this isn't you. Wake up and stay still. He's not yours.  Don't take it for granted. The end will not be like what you have imagine. Just try your best to make your dreams come true. Improve yourself, pray to Him, and trust Allah. As simple as that. So stop acting like he's already yours.

Girls, Don't Move Down!

I don't know but recently I saw girls that still can't accept the facts that everything is over. They're no other than my chingus (friends). Sedih. Ada yang masih tinggal dalam memori silam. Dan ada juga yang masih cuba mengejar sesuatu yang tidak berbaloi untuk di kejar. Girls, I saw you as my sisters. I know its hard. When you're loving and hoping for someone but then he left. STOP clinging onto guys that never know how to appreciate you girls. You deserves someone better than that.

I am not good either since I never experienced having relationships for more than two years so I never know how that feeling grows. I might be have a feeling like you too if I'm in your shoes but please, jangan tunjuk sangat awak sedang kejar dia. Just let him go. He will come back someday if Allah stated that he's your mate. But before that day comes, please don't put him deep in your heart. Throw him away and let just Allah be there. Insyaallah you will feel better. Don't have hope on people, but have hope on that person's creator (Allah SWT). STOP doing things that make you think of him but do things that makes you closer to HIM. STOP sending messages to him but do send your du'a to Allah. STOP remembering him every night in your dreams, but instead, let HIM (Allah) take over him from your heart and mind. Just STOP GIRL.

You may think that everything he does is just an act, to see how strong and loyal you are. But if he really do loves you, he will NEVER hurt you. NEVER. Didn't you think that Allah wants you to let him go for a while? or maybe HE wants to tell you that he isn't for you so just let him be. Positive thinking is good but in this case, positive thinking about the bad things that he does to you and all the harsh words that he said to you isn't the right thing. Its just a sign that might not meant for you.

Before loving and hoping on others, do love yourself and Allah first. Insyaallah, the happiness will be yours. Only He knows when the time will come but trust me, Janji Allah itu PASTI =)

Dinding. Lagi.

Pastinya setiap yang berlaku punya sebab tersendiri.

Walau terkadang aku sendiri tertanya apakah yang tersirat disebalik yang terjadi itu.

Namun ku gagahkan hati, percaya dengan setiap ketentuan Dia yang satu.

Mungkin belum masanya untuk aku temui erti disebaliknya.

Kerana kadangkala setiap yang terjadi itu bukanlah untuk dimengerti.

Di saat kita merasakan chemistry itu hampir tiba,

Kejadian demi kejadian berlaku memecahkan semuanya.

Dan disini, dinding itu muncul kembali.

Kekok.

Sukar.

Perit.

Aku rindu saat itu.

Aku ingin kembali ke situ.

Seharusnya dari awal aku membina dinding itu.

Supaya aku tak merasa perasaan yang begini.

Bukan senang untuk runtuhkan dinding yang pertama dulu.

Dan pastinya lebih sukar untuk dinding yang kedua ini.

Wahai aku. Terimalah kesudahan itu. Semuanya kerana aku. 

Missing.

Smiling with no reason. Why? You didn't even do something funny but I'm smiling like crazy seeing your name appearing on the screen. See? How did you do it? Seriously.

S.A.Y.A.N.G.

6 weeks are too short. As usual, separation is the thing that everyone hates. 6 weeks isn't long but we managed to be this close in this short period. No more classes. No more energizer. No more Miss A's voice and advises for us. But the memories is still there. Just why are we becoming too close now I can't forget everything. And the places that we used to go together, I can't go alone at the moment. Their voices and presence still lingers around me. Will take time for it to be back to normal again.

And why...Why did they love to sing Sayang? I used to hate that song when I first heard. But later when one of my group member sang that song almost everyday, started to like it little by little. Then other class members keep singing that song and officially I turned out to love that song. Plus, our class guitarist sang that song too during the gathering while doing Truth or Dare game. I love how they sing with live guitar. And then last week classes, all of us keep singing that song. So now when listening to Shae's Sayang, I will always remember them all. Sweetest 6 weeks with them. Friendships, Relationships and Loves.=)

Hiding.

Its for today. Friday. My friend's group and his group will be shooting a scene in my mom's shop. And so I waited for them in front. And when he arrive, with his innocent face he ask "You wait for who?" I'm just showing an annoying face. And he laughs. Lucky I can hold it in, if not, I will say that I'm waiting for him LOL.

Then one of friend shoot for her team. That scene demands her to be with X's friend. And then that friend of mine said that she can't act if he was the one who will be the cameraman. But I think if I am the cameraman, the whole video will be shaking. Yes he's there. They don't know cuz yea, I'm good enough that I can hide it all for myself only.

Later his turn and I am standing in front of the shop to watch him. But he with his cute face demands me to be away from him or else he can't focus on his acting. LOL funny you. Then on my part he observe everything. Lucky I can focus. He comment about my voice that can't be heard as clear. And his friend also teased me like usual. They said that I just need to talk like usual. Like how I always do when they teased me.

Oh, I missed one thing. While he's shooting his part, his notebook is with me. And my friend shows an eye sign for us to see what's inside. I think he's better than me. Everything in there is about classes, well organize. Yes, teacher-to-be of course he knows and plan everything. Then my friend said to me "D, he is quite handsome. Cuz with just normal cloth, he's still looking good. And I just nodded. I can't say too much, worried that everything inside will be exploded. Then she ask me once again what do I think about him. I just don't know how to react and just smile back at her. She said that he's a good guy and looking at his notebook yes, we can see that he's organized. I just let our conversation stops there cuz I don't know how to hide it more.

Only if she knows how much I like him. But it's okay. I always pray to Allah about my to-be. So He knows what's the best for me.

One Step Closer.

And so, another day comes. Everyday, there will be something happens between us. Today, we got to be in a same group once again. This time, smaller group. And he asked to use my place for his group in our 3rd assignment. Means that, this whole week, we're together. Well, its okay for me to be happy over that small thing rite?

Ok, we're in the same group. And again he keeps teasing and asking me things. But today, its a bit professional, since his another friend also gotta be in that group. Our group's story was so fun and he becomes a girl LOL He can be an actor if he wants. He doesn't need to talk, just use his expression and body movement. Enough to make us all laughing out loud.

And then, energizer. At first I don't wanna involve but then my friend drag me in too. And so fated that he and his bestfriend stands beside us. Or to be more precise, he is standing just next to me. My heart goes dugeun-dugeun cuz he's too close to me. I intentionally goes one step backward, or else my heart will burst. He's tall enough that I 'm just at the level of his shoulders. (Perfect for me kkkk).

Later, cuz he is sitting in front of me in role play group, he's talking with my friend and he said that he wanted to go back home this evening and suddenly they're all turning to me. "D, you drive today rite?" "uh yes. Then I'm the one that should send him there?" my face might shown that I don't want to but deep inside, I'm jumping up to the sky cuz yea, more time with him XD.

After that, our last task for today we need to do one more role play. This time, he wants to be a son and I'm the daughter. He wants to discuss with me about our roles, but I can't! I can't be just with him cuz I'll be damn nervous if its only the two of us! And so, not much discussion between us but good enough I can role play with him. Doing lots of eye contact. Priceless.

And then, while waiting for my friend before we went back. He came closer. Ask for my phone number. Girls, I don't need to explain more rite? Of course I'm happy like crazy. There's only two of us behind that wall, it's so beautiful in my view LOL. Then I ask him to drive my car since he wants me to send him to the bus station. It's not that I don't really know how to drive there but do you think I can focus in my driving is he was in there? That's the main reason why I refuse to drive on my own.

But then because there's 3 of them, another friend of us offer himself to drive. Although I want him to, but its ok. Acceptable cuz X then sat beside me on the car. Again, too close. He might not feel anything but me. Since I am the smallest one among all of us there, so I need to be in the middle. His friend, one is driving and another one is sitting in front while my friend is with me and him at the back that's why. Don't ask more.

Then we arrived. And he said thanks a lot. Next time he'll ask for my help again. I wanted to tell him that if its for him, I will do anything to help but of course, I wouldn't tell him the truth. Then I ask his friend to treat me someday and they just laugh.

Later at home. I got a message. Its him! He said thanks for everything and he will treat me someday. Oh my~ We replying each other till 10pm. Long enough cuz its our 1st time texting each other. And he also ask about my lil sis that I brought that day. He ask me to bring her again cuz he like to teased her. Dear you, you will meet my sis again. Yes I assure you, again. and again. XD

Chance?

This is for yesterday's. I don't know what should I feel. Either happy, or relieved. Because that girl that he likes, already have someone. And yesterday one of my close friend ask me why did he always teased me. There's about 20 girls in there but why only me? Idk.

Then there's one task that demand us all to choose and be in group either a, b, or c. So I choose b and they also choose b. We formed a big group of B. During the discussion, none of us wanted to be the presenter. Then he looked at me, "D, you're looking good. So pretty with that blazer. You should go." It was in front of all the members but he makes it like just the two of us was there. I think I'm good enough now. I can hide all of my inner feelings and deal with it since it was in front of the class.

So did the door opened to me? But when that girl named "S" presented in front, I sneakily look at his face. But nothing much shown. Or maybe I don't know how to read a guy's face. Somewhere, deep inside, I saw some lights. And hope =)

^_______^

Believe it or not. Feels like living in a dream ugh. We're having meals together and he sat beside me. He pick everything for me, and we share the same bowl. Just two of us. I can't ask for more. Its good enough for me, as a very gorgeous sweet memory. [Never share food in a same plate with any guy before and yes, I deserve to be happy by myself LOL]. And get to know each other better. He said he would like come again with us. I will always wait for that 'again' with him =)

New Path. New Journey.

I've been free all of these time. But I never want to be in any relationship cuz only me know how it will end. But being in this new environment, meeting new peoples, it changed me little by little. Its great to be in new environment with people that have lots of similarities with us. 1st week, we already becoming close with all of our group members. And second week, of course its become even better, being close enough with all the class member till we can just say anything about our secrets and hanging out together.

But, because of this one guy called as X, everything becomes upside down. I guess experiences really has an impact on me, yea I don't easily showed that up but deep inside me, I know everything. The fact that X is always choosing a seat that can be seen by me and our gaze always meeting each other, yes, something is growing inside me also. He has this aura when I look into his eyes. It crashes all the ice inside me. I'll say it precisely, yes, I'm melting. Once again.

He shouldn't have shown his interest in me. I don't know maybe once again this a one-sided feelings but its too late for me to deny, its already growing like crazy when he shows all the interest when we interact.

To tell the truth, having this feelings again after more than years, (biases excluded XP) its actually something good. Blooming like sakura. And once again, because we're being too close, all the classmates and group members, out of nowhere, I can sense that one of my close friend there too have something growing inside her. And then this morning X said something like "If me and my bestfriend like the same person, then I'll give her to him." Upps! Lets stop here. If continue then I'll kantoi. kkkkkk. To be continued.

Kerinduan Si Ombak.

Ombak Rindu adalah fenomena. 

Aku yang sedang cuba berhenti utk menonton movie di pawagam pon terhasut sekali dek fenomena melampau. Terdapat statement yg mengatakan air mata si teruna pon bole jatuh. Justeru, teringin jugak la nak tgk. Macam mane lah jalan ceritanya sampai bole buat ramai mengalirkan air mata. 

Ternyata bagiku, failed. Rasanya Papadom lagi boleh buat aku nanges drpd Ombak Rindu. Well, yes. Maybe sebab aku ni family person. Papadom tu kan pasal kasih syg bapak kpd anak. Berbanding Ombak Rindu. Hati aku tak mampu mencapai emosi dalam cerita tu. Mungkin sebab aku single? Aku tak mampu nak rase kesedihan yang dilalui watak-watak dalam tu. Atau mungkin juga plot dalam tu sangat laju? Baru nak dpt feel, tup2 dah tukar part. Tak sempat nk tenggelam. Betol la ckp org yang pernah baca novel ni, novel yang sebegitu tebal tak mampu nak di'compile'kan utk durasi yang hanya 2jam. 

Lisa nampak sangat menawan dlm tu, tapi dia macam tak berapa sesuai pegang watak Mila. Rasanya Liyana Jasmay lebih sesuai utk watak sebegitu. Julia Ziegler pulak nampak sangat macam dia tgh 'berlakon'. And pakaian dia sangat menyeksakan untuk di pandang. Oklah, aku bukan master sgt bab2 ni. Tapi ini sekadar pandangan aku sebagai penonton. Atau mungkin dari sudut pandangan seorang yang berhati ais?

Cuma aku paling suka bait-bait dalam OST Ombak Rindu ni. Sangat menyentuh kalbu. Sangat-sangat mengenai aku. Terutama part "Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku.Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku.Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka.Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku". Hehe. Jom kita tengok lirik dia.

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu

Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku 

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku

Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku

Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka

Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku 

Malam kau bawalah rinduku

Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku

Agar dia tidak kesepian

Selalu rasa ada cinta agung 

Hujan bawa air mata ku

Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku

Agar dia tahu ku terseksa

Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku 

Hanya mampu terserah

Moga cahaya di penanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia

Untuk terima ku seadanya

Kerna ku tak sanggup

Kerna ku tak mampu 

Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

P/s: Bha, sa suda addict sama ini lagu sudah~

Sekali Lagi

Di ruang infiniti,

Sekali lagi.

Bukan baru sekali,

Tapi sudah berulang kali.

Perasaanku terbang.

Melayang.

Mengapa begini?

Berulang kali cuba aku tetapkan hati.

Berulang kali cuba aku kuatkan diri.

Berulang kali cuba aku berlakon dengan minda.

Sepertinya segala yang ada didalam jasadku ini hilang kawal.

Siapa yang mengawal?

Aku kah?

Aku tidak mampu.

Hati tahu.

Minda tahu.

Semua yang ada pada jasadku ini tahu.

Ada sesuatu yang wujud dalam hati.

Tapi minda tak mahu mengakui.

Mulut tak mampu berbunyi.

Kerana aku penakut.

Ya. Aku takut perasaanku ini bakal membunuhku.

Takut dengan konklusi yang bakal muncul.

Takut dengan final result.

Takut dengan pilihanku.

Maka dengan pengecutnya aku terus terdiam.

Mendiamkan dan didiamkan.

Cuma ini yang mampu aku lakukan dikala ia melayang lagi.

Terbang bebas di ruang infiniti tanpa graviti.

Tanpa jawapan yang pasti.

Biarlah tergantung konklusi.

11.54 p.m.
20-11-2011
(Oh,terbantut lab report hidraulik seketika)

Nubhan oh Nubhan.

GorgeousNubhanAndHeisKillingMe!

Ok, org2 sekeliling saya dah tahu kot kenapa tiba2 Nubhan? Hehe. Memang saya Nubies, tp aura Nubies dalam diri sy tak sekuat Deriaku ngan A+. Tapi tiba2 saje aura Nubies 2 melonjak naek. Sebab ape? Sebab saya yang blur ni terserempak ngan Abang Nubhan (dan2 je panggil abang. haha).

Hari Jumaat memang hari saya merayau, almaklumlah 5 hari kuliah, so lepas kelas Jumaat memang waktu terbaek nak mengeluarkan diri. Jumaat yg semalam, Dona ajak teman dia repair Nokia die yang comel 2 kat Plaza Alam Sentral (PAS). Sampai sana dalam pukul 1.46pm. Hantar Nokia Dona kt service center, lapar, gerak makan kat food court dulu. Lepas tu saya pegi solat. Lepas solat kami lepak dalam 5 minit, bajet nak lepak sampai amoi yang repair 2 call Dona, tapi tiba2 Dona ckp nk pegi toilet pulak. Jomlah, bosan jugak lepak saje2 kan. Sekali kat lorong yg berliku nak ke toilet, sunyi, yang Dona selalu ckp "tempat ni bole buat filem seram ni" dan time Dona tgh berbicara, keluar kelibat seorg lelaki (actually ade lagi extra 2 org laki, tapi mcm xnmpk. Tak cukup aura mungkin.) Macam korea. Handsome! Detik dlm hati. Tapi die jalan slow2 bila nampak kami mcm tgh blur, die macam menunggu kami tegur die. Lama jugak die pandang kami. Aku rasa macam aku kenal lelaki handsome ni. Oh, damn! Aku tarik tgn Dona. "NUBHAN!" Sedikit kuat suara saya ye. Maybe die pon terdengar sebab die maseh belum keluar dari lorong2 berliku itu. Dan bila kami follow die dari belakang,(agak jaoh dah sebenarnye sebab die dah masuk kt entrance Sri Pentas 2) and die still pandang2 belakang. Lembab betol minah berdua ni. Mungkin itu yang terdetik dihati beliau. Tak pe la Nubhan. Nubbies da ramai tunggu awak kt sane kan. Kami ni memang minah blur. Lol.

Rase macam nak pegi tengok Semi Finak Muzik2 je next week. Asalnya plan nak pegi time ade 6ixth Sense je. Semangat Deriaku la katakan. Means that minggu yg last jela. Tapi dah alang2 nampak Nubhan semalam, rase nak pegi je every week. So next week ade Hazama ngan Nubhan! Yeay! Harap2 dapat pas masuk:) Tapi semestinya peluang tak kan datang lagi. Ye, peluang keemasan selalunya datang sekali je. Peluang di mana hanya kami dengan Nubhan, tanpa Nubies yg terjerit-jerit name beliau. Tak mungkin akan ade lagi peluang sebegitu. Well, at least senyum dan say 'Hai' Adi! Dush3! Kena upgrade dah memory saye ni. Lambat pikap.

Dengan tak semena-mena sy mengumpul gambar beliau dan semuanya sumber daripada Muka Buku. Ini beberapa gambar yang macam menarik utk dikongsi. Go Nubhan!

Macam model. (Er. Dah name pon artis kannn.)

Tak payah duk tenung2 sangat la kan. Jatuh tergolek dah hati saya ney. Lol~

Ok, seriously mcm ni lah rupa die time terserempak tu. Lembabnye saya(-.-')

Sangat suke angle gmbr ini di'tembak'. He looks so cool!

6 Weeks Only!

13th November, leaving Kelantan for Shah Alam. Dengan niat menuntut ilmu kerana Allah, berharap dpt menunaikan impian umi dan abah utk melihat sy memegang ijazah sarjana muda. Sabarlah hati, 6 minggu saja lagi. Berkorban sekarang pon utk family jugak nanti. Jauh tertanam dlm dasar hati, sy nk success, nk support adek2, pasni umi ngan abah xyah susah2 keje dah. Biar sy ngan Afiq pulak berusaha carik duet. Yosh!(dengan tiba2 homesick kali ni xsekuat seperti selalu. Semangat utk menghabiskan final semester kot. InsyaAllah, dengan doa umi dan abah berserta izin Allah 6 minggu ni takkan lame.)

Tapi bila sampai kt Shah Alam, ouhhhhhhh~ Sayangnye nak tinggalkan kawan2! Lagi 6 minggu? For real? 6 Weeks ONLY? Macam pendek sgt je. Sempat ke nak kumpul memori byk2 lagi ngan dorg? Like seriously, I'll use the time wisely, I wouldn't let it go even just a second for all of my friends here. Plus dengan FYP(Final Year Project) lagi. Aduuuuuhhhhhhh! Pendeknye 6 minggu itu! Lepas tu akan ade final exam, lepas tu Presentation utk FYP. Lepas 2 berakhirlah tugasku sebagai pelajar Ijazah Sarjana Muda Sains (K) Fizik (Insyaallah). 

Dan utk sisa2 waktu yang tinggal ini, amatlah sy berharap agar sy dpt mengorbankan Kpop dan hiburan2 laen seketika, supaya sy dpt menggunakan masa yg pendek ini sebaeknya. Dapat grad dengan sempurna. Semoga Allah memberkati segala pekerjaan yang kami semua lakukan, insyaallah. Amin.

This 6 weeks sounds so very short. 

11-11-11

Tajuk nk gempak je annnn. Tapi xde kene mengena pon. Just me, maseh terasa kosong. (tetiba teringat lagu Najwa Latiff. Nyanyi skaliiii!keke) Oh, back to serious mood. Kosong, sy rasa ni balasan sebab sy jd heart breaker. Weird(fuhh..speaking dowh!) sebab tetiba je rasa sayang tu hilang. Ye, maybe Allah nk tunjuk kalo kita memilih ikot nafsu, bukan sebab agama, bukan berasaskan istikharah. Sampai suatu tahap rasa sayang yg sgt kuat di awal nya makin hilang dan pudar. Well, actually dah lame perasan. Sebab tu I tend to stop coupling for a while lepas clash. Tapi yela, darah mude kannn. Dah kenapa aku duk cerita pasal benda ni pulak nih? Sebab macam yg aku tekankan awal2 tu - K.O.S.O.N.G - *jum2 nyanyi lagu Najwa Latiff.. Addicted sudah..lol*

Oh Tuhan nak bagi sy rasa ape yg beliau tersebot rase kot. Saya takde terkilan atau menyesal pon, tapi kenapa macam ade rase tidak senang hati? Kenapa asek terfikir ape yang die rase? Kenapa nak buat semua kerja pon mcm xsenang? Ugh! Seriously sy punye hati macam ade simpulan2. Tak tahu mcm mane nk uraikan. Huk3. Ade sape2 yang reti bagi solution tak? Tiap kali nak buat kerja, even dalam kelas pon xdpt nk focus fully. Aduhh. Penyakit apakah ini? Sebab tu saya perlukan ade orang sentiasa di sekeliling saya. Saya tak boleh alone, nanti penyakit susah hati or serabut perut ni dtg balek. Well, memang la rase bersalah sebab dah jd heratbreaker kan. Tp rasenye daripada sy biarkan die bertepuk sebelah tgn, baek sy mintak pelepasan kan. Taknak la sy still sebab kesian je. Tak adil untok die bila hati sy bukan utk die sepenuhnya. 

Dan sy sentiasa mendoakan yg terbaek utk die. Walaupon sy tawu mungkin dah xde name sy dlm doa die. Takpe, mmg salah sy sebab kecewakan die. Sy tak salahkan die pon. Cuma harap die dpt lupakan sy sepenuhnya, jalani hidup die mcm biase dan semoga beliau menjumpai orang yg sememangnya tercipta utknya. Okay, dah. Semoga dgn lepasan 'gelas' yg satu ini akan mengurangkan beban di hati yg berselirat ni. Sy serahkan segala pada Allah. 

Btw, ni lah sy nk share video lagu Kosong original by Najwa Latiff yg sy dok sebot2 part awal2 2. 

shukeshangatlaguneh..uhuk3~

Rintihan Taubat

Suke sgt 6ixth Sense. Kegilaan sy terhadap muzik kpop tak pernah padamkan minat sy terhadap 6ixth Sense. Selagi ade Adi dan 6ixth Sense, selagi itulah sy akan pegang title as Deriaku.^^ Band ini agak unik. Gabungan muzik malay+indon yg sgt sepadan. Dan Adi juga seorang komposer yg berbakat selain suaranya yg sememangnya unik! Gabungan Nubhan dan Adi untuk Oh Juwita memang membuatkan sy kagum. (Style Nubhan nyanyi pon da mcm Adi dah skarang tp xpe sbb sy pon Nubbies jugak..keke). One more thing yg buat sy kagum ngan Adi nih, die slalu jugak terlibat dgn lagu2 ketuhanan. Dan ini yg terbaru yg sy jumpa. Feels like sharing the lyrics:) Enjoy the video guys. I just wanna share the lyrics and video here.

Tiada risau menghimpit jiwa

Tiada resah menyempit dada

Di layar mewah menghitung ganda

Tiada rasa salah dan dosa

Hingga saat bala melanda

Tiada upaya menghalangnya

Semua yang nyata jadi gelita

Dunia terasa sempitnya

Tuhan.. Ku syukuri..

Nikmat dan petunjuk-Mu

Tuhan.. Ku agungi..

Maha keesaan-Mu

Kau beri dunia untuk ke syurga

Ku salah guna untuk ke neraka

Ampukan aku

Terima taubatku

Ku damba keredhaan-Mu

Mewah sudah ku rasa

Namun hanya untuk dunia

Kan ku mulakan dan utamakan

Untuk ke syurga-Mu pula

Kau tunjuk arah yang nyata

Kau bersih sucikan jiwa

Kau kekalkanlah, abadikannya

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Esa.

Ampukan aku. Terima taubatku. Kudamba keredhaan-Mu.

Rintihan Taubat by Adi 6ixth Sense.

Album: Zakat Menjunjung Amanah

Wrong person once again?

Oppppps! Once again~ My heart really is like an ice. Fragile and easily melts. Kenapa lah senang sgt sy nak ter'jatuh' ni? Aduhh~ Gara2 sy pegi tgk notes2 die la ni. Cair bile nampak teguran berhikmah dia kt kaum hawa. Mungkin kalo tak kena cara, teguran utk hal sebegitu akan bunyi kasar tp dia, lembut dan mendalam. Tak pe, sy dah biasa jd secret admire ni. Memang part time sy. Dah lama tak jadi peminat rahsia sesiapa lepas abes diploma dulu. Memang hobi masa lapang sy kannn.lalala~


Tp salah kah sy nak berkawan dgn org? Salahkah kalau org yg sy baru nak kenal tu bekas pakwe anda? Dah name pon ex kn. Lagipun kami cuma kawan2 je, sbb sy dpt rase ex awk 2 still syg awk. Jangan nak block sy ye girl?:) Sy taknak kacau dia kalau awk still syg dia. Cuma sy sedikit terguris, sbb sy senang sgt terjatuh hati. Calar balar dah hati ni sbb selalu sgt jatuh tp xde org sambut. Terguris sbb sy tahu awk pernah bahagia ngan dia. Saya nak jugak rasa macam tu. Tapi xpe,mungkin Allah masih nak pelihara hati sy, mungkin Allah ade nak tunjukkan sesuatu kat sy lagi. Tak pe,sy boleh sabar lagi. Saya percaya janji Allah:)

Lepaskan Saja Gelas Itu!

Yeah, credit to Sha Al Juf for the title.. Tajuk itu bermaksud, lepaskn bebanmu tiap hari sblm tido.. Kalau kita memegang gelas, setiap hari isinya akan bertambah, dan sampai suatu ketika gelas itu akan menjadi sgt berat dan tak mampu lagi untuk kita terus memegangnya.. Diibaratkan disini, gelas dan air itu adalah masalah dan kekusutan yg kita hadapi setiap hari.. Setiap hari sblm tido,lepaskan 'segelas air'.. Pasti esoknya hari kita akan lebih tenang:) (err,jgn pulak korg pegi pecahkn gelas kt umah korg tiap2 mlm ye.. Abes kang mak2 carik saya sbb tiap2 bulan nk kena beli set gelas baru..hoho~).. Lupakan,lepaskan,maafkan setiap hari sblm tido:)

Wahh.. Panjang lah pulak intro..keke.. This is just the intro for my new blog.. Yeah, I do need a place to release all of my problems.. So, blog ini akan menjadi tempat saya melepaskn 'gelas' saya.. I hate writing! So, saya taknak tulis dlm diari..

(p/s: kwn2 yg mengenali, jgn risau.. Blog ini tidak akan saya penuhi dgn Kpop mcm blog yg sedia ada^^)

Well, sbg permulaan cukuplah kot sampai disini.. Jumpa lagi bila saya dah betul2 ready nk lepaskn segala gelas2 saya..See ya~